No! I’m not gonna!
I recently had my mother in the ER. I was at work when she called me. She said she was on the floor and asked that I come help her get up.
She said that she was feeling dizzy, went to go lie down and must’ve passed out. When she came to she was on the floor.
I notice she had a little bit of a bloody nose and was pale white. Her blood pressure was low for her. Not low per say, but low for her. Then she started getting nauseous. That’s when I started to get concerned. She wanted to go lie down, so we got her into the bedroom where I took her blood pressure again. This time it was low for any one. I called 911 and we ended up taking her to the emergency room.
The ER doctor decided that her sodium levels were low, which cause low blood pressure, which caused her to pass out and hit the floor. I think she might’ve even had a little bit of a concussion because of all the puking.
The ER doctors wanted her to stay the night so they could slowly raise her sodium levels through IV. She emphatically refuse to stay the night. She wouldn’t be able to have her beer! That was the only reason she wouldn’t stay.
You can bet I was angry at her. I couldn’t believe that her beer was so much more important. After all these years of me watching her decline this way, I still don’t get it.
With that said, I talk to the doctor about how we could raise her sodium levels at home. Of course we can do it through food. So I took her home.
I have been doing Internet research on sodium levels and alcohol. Also on what foods have high sodium. I think I’ve got it figured out, so we’re making some diet adjustments and she’s looking a lot better.
She is such a stubborn woman. I realize that she’s no more stubborn than I am. No more stubborn than we are as believers. There are days where we just tell God, ” I’m not gonna stay”, “I’m not going to go”, “I’m not going to do that”.
Those certainly aren’t the words that the Lord would like to hear from us. He wants us to trust Him. When we tell the Lord no, that shows that we don’t trust him. We don’t trust his plan. We don’t trust his promises. It shows that we are afraid. It shows that the enemy is winning that little battle within us because we let him.
5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.
Trusting in the Lord takes practice. It takes work. Believing that he has our best interest at heart. Believing his ways are higher than our ways. His thoughts are higher than our thoughts. Having faith that he knows the future. He planned the future and will work all things out for our good.
9 “As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
When we are feeling anxious about tomorrow or about a trouble we are having. Changing our thoughts from worry to faith. Moving from God, what if? To God, what next! It’s a choice we have to make with every thought that leads us away from Him. If what causes you fear or anxiety keeps you from focusing on Him, then changing your thoughts or actions will help you.
Stop what your thinking. Review memorized scripture. Take time to look up verses that give you hope, peace and joy. Think about how the Lord has helped you in the past. How he provided or protected. How what you thought would be a terrible thing has come about to be better in the end. Yes, times are hard. Yes, money is tight. Health issues arise, but believing and trusting that He will work everything out in the end will give us peace. And friends, I want peace!
Once such verse that the Lord brings to mind often when I am struggling with mom is Galatians 6:9. I love that the Spirit loves me enough to remind me not to give up. Not to let her drunkenness get to me. He reminds me to keep loving her. Keep praying for her and to keep serving her. When I serve her, I serve the Lord and that brings me peace.
9 Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.
While we are on the subject of my mom, please take the time to read “The Mom of My Childhood“. See why I love my mama so much.
What verses have you memorized to keep you focused on Him and on track?
Have a lovely week!